May my Fears be Lifted

Last night at the grocery store I had a very awkward, kind of scary, anger inducing moment. That's a lot of emotions in one sentence.....

I love my job. I do not do it because I want to make sure we have a world of skinny people. I do not do it because I believe that fat people are hard to look at. I do not do it because I want to rub the way I look into someone's face that hasn't reached their goal. I do it because God has put this desire in my heart to help people with their journey of becoming a better them . A healthier them. God did not put me in a place to judge them and He did not put me there to make fun of their size. I am their shoulder to cry on when they have had a bad day, and their person who just listens when they need to vent because they had a bad week. That being said, I can now go onto my shopping experience last night.

I chose to go to Krogers last night because I wanted to get some of the best produce and we all know that around here, Walmart does not cut it when it comes to produce. When I go to the store I am in the zone! I do not want to bump into anyone I know and sometimes I will go out of my way not to see someone because I just want the trip to be over. I know, sounds rude, but I do not want my trip to last longer then needed. This trip, I was stopped by a guy who would not leave me alone. At first I didn't think anything of it because he obviously was not into women, and was a skinny, frail looking guy. But then every time I tried to walk away he wouldn't let me, or would follow me. He asked me what I did for work, and I told him that I worked for Weight Watchers. This opened up a huge can of worms!

"Oh.....So work with fat people?" constantly just mouthing the word fat. Really? I mean REALLY? HELLO! I used to be one of those "fat" people!

He then goes on the invite me to an awesome party that would have all kind of artsy people and I was just so cute that he would make me one of the heroins of his books. Wow....Thanks. What I always wanted to be told. To make this much better I did not have my phone, or wedding rings on and I was by myself since both my girls went to stay with their Grammie and Pocker last night.

Do most women strap their purses in their buggies and make sure you button and zip it up? I do and did last night but it wasn't until maybe 10 minutes after I had gotten away from this guy that a rush of panic came over me that he or if he had a friend could have take something from me as I was distracted and put my back to my purse. Frantically I dug through my purse and went through my wallet to make sure everything was there, and thankfully it was.

I was finishing up my shopping trip with produce and I was very proud of myself this week because I bought some produce that I do not know what it is but I was trying it because I had never had it before. My Weight Watchers leader would be so proud! Then, I saw him again and this time with a friend. I tried to get out of there as quickly as possible but then I was cornered. His friend was interested in the tomatoes I had put in my buggy and tried to reach his hand into my buggy to get them. They happened to be sitting on my purse so I was a bit more upset. I was looking around for someone I could reach out to and finally I just prayed a prayer to God to protect me and to take away the fear that had set in.  Satan was winning at the grocery store and that was the scariest feeling in the world!

After getting my produce I did not see these guys again so I breathed a sigh of relief. I had them take my groceries out with me so I that I did not walk out alone. I was very thankful I had taken off that huge Scentsy sticker before getting groceries so my car was less identifiable to them and they couldn't get any of my information from it. I did a little ziggin' and zaggin' on the way home to make sure no one was following me and, yes I did look in my mirrors to make sure. Got home, gun loaded, dogs in and did a little praying for the fear to be taken away! It's amazing when you get that rush of relief when you pray for fear to be taken. I could feel God lifting that fear right off of me and telling me everything was ok.

I feel like this verse sums up my prayers last night.
Psalms 34:4 I prayed to the LORD, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears.

Believe

I love sharing my story with people! Tonight I was able to talk with an old friend about the Weight Watchers program and how much it has changed my life. I do not get paid to share my story and I do not get commission for telling people I recommend the program, I do it because it worked for me and I strongly believe in it! I forget sometimes how it felt and tonight I was taken back listening to my friends story. It's amazing how much us young moms share! I have had many ups and downs in my journey and, like I was trying to say to my friend, my journey is a constant journey. I am so happy to see that this blog is really reaching out and helping others and I pray that I can continue to help people make it to a healthier lifestyle!